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[bladesworn]

Ichigo's lost his Shinigami powers AGAIN, he's also 1/4 quincy.

At this point he's 1/4 human, 1/4 Shinigami, 1/4 Hollow, and 1/4 Quincy. I'm beginning to think that I've been reading this series for so long I've become acclimated to it's bullshit.

 

[bladesworn]

Nah, you're all cool. Ya got hobbies 'n shit 'n talk about cool stuffs. I just come in and bitch ._.

If it makes you feel any better, blade life is messed up too.

blade has aspergers, is a mental wreck, is currently fighting depression as he slowly and painfully learns how to act normal and realizes he'll probably never do so, is broke as fuck, is probably permanently screwed when it comes to getting a decent job, and just in general has fucked up his life.

 

[Lige]

'eh, I dunno you that well but regardless of that I can tell you're genuinely a cool person. I hope things get better for you. Depressions definitely a bitch. I feel like I'm finally out of that "condition", but now I'm depressed for normal reasons... It's a never ending battle seemingly.

It turns out, my "best friend" no call/text canceled our plans to hang out. Kicked me out of a roommate situation that was to happen 3/1 (Without telling me, I had to contact to ask) and went to my boss' to tell them I punched wall, and where it happened. Then they got video proof. I know it was this order for a fact. They didn't approach him, he went to them. Everyone I've ever trusted has literally stabbed me in the back and or abandoned me. Including my own fucking family.

The most annoying thing to me at the moment though is how weak / fatigued I am. I tried killing myself twice in the last 2 weeks by ODing on various things, so my bodies in a half shut down state. I just woke up but I'm already nearly passing out again ._.

I wanna do something fun but have no energy... Yay for stupid decisions.

In other news, I might end up homeless. Not because of the above, (that too, though - my mom could switch personalities at any minute and tell me to gtfo for being worthless again) my moms probably dying of cancer, so, yeah. (She definitely has it, it is spreading, but they're going to operate within the week to see how far it's progressed / if they can stop it)

So in a nutshell: Feb 1 - Feb 15th, treated like shit at work.
Feb 15th - Written up at work, punch wall, break hand.
Feb. 19th-ish (not sure exactly) find out my mom "might" have cancer.
Mar 4th - Doctors refuse to let me go back to work.
Mar 9th - Find out my mom does have cancer.
Mar 10th - I pay a SECOND doctor to give me a note to go back to work. I go back to work, everything seems normal.
Mar 11th - I go to work, it wont let me clock in. I'd already been fired

What's next?

 

[megumi]

Whatever comes next is just the next thing coming up.

 

[Lige]

._. I'd rather just be frozen in time. Or get a TARDIS and take off :x

 

[Lige]

Hmm... Soo... I kind-a got a engagement ring in mail today. I'm kind-a unsure what to do "in the house" though seeing as my mom has no idea I'm in a relationship, and she'd pretty much disown me if she finds out I really am "planning to leave the state again" (she has a complex in her mind that I am totally dependent on her, like... 100%. At the moment since I got fired, yes I am quite a bit ._.)

I can't really think of any good "cover stories" as to why I suddenly have and am wearing a ring...

 

[bladesworn]

If none of you recognize this, blade will be very disappointed:

 

[Lige]

No clue.

 

[Matze149]

Nah, you're all cool. Ya got hobbies 'n shit 'n talk about cool stuffs. I just come in and bitch ._.

So what? If it helps you, keep doing it! If none of those lazy admins tell you to stop, you can keep going (yes, about everyone who posts in this thread is one or has at least one of those nice, not shiny (because of all the spammer blood) ban hammers).

I know how it is to begin to do that to oneself. If my english teacher some years ago hadn´t told me to stop it, after my class"mates" (people my age usually don´t like me, don´t ask why) succeeded to get me this far, I probably wouldn´t even be here <.<"

So yeah: STOP doing that to yourself.
Stop degrading and calling yourself stuff like shit or worse. Shit either can´t talk (because it´s shit, duh) or gets ban hammered because it posts ad/porn-spam in our Forum.
It just leads to you making wrong decisions like the one a few posts above.

 

[Lige]

Also, seeing as I just lost my job, and found out it was my best friend that caused it (yes it was MY actions, but, he purposely brought it to their attention) I lost a huge amount of faith in people. I'm-a use that to my advantage for ring situation. Say a friend wanted to "prove" they care about me and sent me a friendship ring. Sadly I can't wear it til tomorrow outside of my bedroom though due to this. (Since it'd be odd if I got a ring the day after I'm fired, when I was fired at almost midnight. "one day shipping" is not "same day shipping" Sooo... yeah... I'll "get it" tomorrow

Already explained this to them as well, they knew my moms a fucking nutter and are "okay" with it. I personally hate having to lie about the rings meaning, but, it's not like I'm doing it to "appear single" or anything. When I get a job / move out / whatever, I'll bring it up ^.^

 

[Matze149]

If none of you recognize this, blade will be very disappointed:

I recognize the "magic" cards in the background - but no idea right now.
It´s almost 1 am here, I have to get up at 5 am and I already lack at least 12 hours of sleep - really, the whole school doesn´t sleep enough on weekdays <.<"

 

[Lige]

So what? If it helps you, keep doing it! If none of those lazy admins tell you to stop, you can keep going (yes, about everyone who posts in this thread is one or has at least one of those nice, not shiny (because of all the spammer blood) ban hammers).

I know how it is to begin to do that to oneself. If my english teacher some years ago hadn´t told me to stop it, after my class"mates" (people my age usually don´t like me, don´t ask why) succeeded to get me this far, I probably wouldn´t even be here <.<"

So yeah: STOP doing that to yourself.
Stop degrading and calling yourself stuff like shit or worse. Shit either can´t talk (because it´s shit, duh) or gets ban hammered because it posts ad/porn-spam in our Forum.
It just leads to you making wrong decisions like the one a few posts above.

'eh, still ._. I used to bottle stuff up back in the day. A few "caring" friends basically broke me down, I spilled everything, lost them. (Basically lost when they broke me down, because it wasn't a "supportive" breakdown, it was treating me like shit suddenly) and ever since I've been this whiny little bitch ;x I need a filter. Hence why I try to stop posting about it, but, then people tell me it's okay to do it. xD It's not.

Seriously, past this point, let's talk about other peoples lives/problems. I for one am sick of Lige's life. He can piss off for a while xP

 

[Lige]

I recognize the "magic" cards in the background - but no idea right now.
It´s almost 1 am here, I have to get up at 5 am and I already lack at least 12 hours of sleep - really, the whole school doesn´t sleep enough on weekdays <.<"

You sleep as much as I do

 

[megumi]

Hmm... Soo... I kind-a got a engagement ring in mail today. I'm kind-a unsure what to do "in the house" though seeing as my mom has no idea I'm in a relationship, and she'd pretty much disown me if she finds out I really am "planning to leave the state again" (she has a complex in her mind that I am totally dependent on her, like... 100%. At the moment since I got fired, yes I am quite a bit ._.)

I can't really think of any good "cover stories" as to why I suddenly have and am wearing a ring...

Keep the ring hidden for now. Unless you are going to see the other person anytime soon (and wear it only then). Pretty much, that ring is just for symbolic sake in your case. Not to really wear...

 

[megumi]

Also, seeing as I just lost my job, and found out it was my best friend that caused it (yes it was MY actions, but, he purposely brought it to their attention) I lost a huge amount of faith in people. I'm-a use that to my advantage for ring situation. Say a friend wanted to "prove" they care about me and sent me a friendship ring. Sadly I can't wear it til tomorrow outside of my bedroom though due to this. (Since it'd be odd if I got a ring the day after I'm fired, when I was fired at almost midnight. "one day shipping" is not "same day shipping" Sooo... yeah... I'll "get it" tomorrow

Already explained this to them as well, they knew my moms a fucking nutter and are "okay" with it. I personally hate having to lie about the rings meaning, but, it's not like I'm doing it to "appear single" or anything. When I get a job / move out / whatever, I'll bring it up ^.^

I guess that's a fair deal.

 

[megumi]

So what? If it helps you, keep doing it! If none of those lazy admins tell you to stop, you can keep going (yes, about everyone who posts in this thread is one or has at least one of those nice, not shiny (because of all the spammer blood) ban hammers).

Ha.

Just had to laugh at that.

 

[megumi]

'eh, still ._. I used to bottle stuff up back in the day. A few "caring" friends basically broke me down, I spilled everything, lost them. (Basically lost when they broke me down, because it wasn't a "supportive" breakdown, it was treating me like shit suddenly) and ever since I've been this whiny little bitch ;x I need a filter. Hence why I try to stop posting about it, but, then people tell me it's okay to do it. xD It's not.

Seriously, past this point, let's talk about other peoples lives/problems. I for one am sick of Lige's life. He can piss off for a while xP

It's hard for others who are in better situations to talk about how their lives are when yours is in a shit hole. But that's just me. ;v;

Honestly.

We're here.

And alive.

Just.

Don't.

 

[megumi]

http://ukthewhitewolf.tumblr.com/post/45303132644/thedarklawyer-i-dont-mean-to-dishonor-the

I don't even know why I'm posting this, but I guess.

 

[Lige]

o_o It's a wonderful day in the neighborhood.

 

[Futamaru]

http://ukthewhitewolf.tumblr.com/post/45303132644/thedarklawyer-i-dont-mean-to-dishonor-the

I don't even know why I'm posting this, but I guess.

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