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SO OVERLY EXCITED!!!!
UNCONTAINABLE POWER IS FLOWING THROUGH ME!!!!
Procrastion Powers Have Activated. Work is now done at a speed that increases the closer it is to the date that it is due, while focus on other things dwindles. It has it's drawbacks, the main one being it only activates when the subject fully realizes the deadline is looming ahead.
*Peaks head in slightly* So... The other day one of my moms personalities actually admitted that she has mental problems. Despite that some of her personalities do want me out already, it seems some don't care and or still want me here as I didn't end up getting kicked out. (Even though I packed up laptop, wiped desktop HD again (which I re-installed again now. Using atm p.q) etc. etc. Even arranged for transportation to homeless shelter...
ANYWAY! Due to this back-and-forth-never-ending-what-the-fuck-is-wrong-with-my-family drama, from now on, instead of saying bye I'm-a just disapear or so. If I don't come back, know it's for one of the chaotic reasons
I don't wanna constantly do this "okay, I'm homeless as of today *mom walks in* ... never mind" type shit every friggin' day. (cause that basically is the case for my life =/ ) More and more of her personalities are starting to hate me universally though, so it's just a matter of time, but, in all honestly, I'm wanting to be homeless if it means getting away from this shit o_o. If I can't find a job by my birthday, and or if she hasn't kicked me out by then, I probably will go anyway. It's tearing down my mentality one piece at a time >_<...
In other news, I have a job interview (FINA-FUCKINGLY) Monday at 10AM (Eastern, GMT-5)
... Wish me luck >.<
ANYWAY! Due to this back-and-forth-never-ending-what-the-fuck-is-wrong-with-my-family drama, from now on, instead of saying bye I'm-a just disapear or so. If I don't come back, know it's for one of the chaotic reasons
I don't wanna constantly do this "okay, I'm homeless as of today *mom walks in* ... never mind" type shit every friggin' day. (cause that basically is the case for my life =/ ) More and more of her personalities are starting to hate me universally though, so it's just a matter of time, but, in all honestly, I'm wanting to be homeless if it means getting away from this shit o_o. If I can't find a job by my birthday, and or if she hasn't kicked me out by then, I probably will go anyway. It's tearing down my mentality one piece at a time >_<...In other news, I have a job interview (FINA-FUCKINGLY) Monday at 10AM (Eastern, GMT-5)
... Wish me luck >.<
As for tracking me down if I never came back... That sounds kind-a creepy, but doesn't seem creepy for some reason? *Shrug* Either way, it makes me feel special-ish, like someone actually cares ^-^... Don't feel that very often, so thanks o_o. (I'm basically down to just DATS people as friends now... As usual with people in my life, everyone else has 'fled the scene' so to speak ^.^ I've never felt more alone in my life o_o. Thank god melatonin actually works and let's me sleep. If not I'd probably have bled out by now...
Oh, speaking of which, I think I'm allergic to it though...
"Seek medical attention right away if any of these SEVERE side effects occur when using Melatonin:
The stuff in bold/italic being the ones that effect me. The hypothermia part is actually a pain in the ass when it kicks in cause I already feel like I can't breath, so gasping for air in quick/winded breath-mode is friggin' annoying. Usually if I can fall asleep before the shit kicks in, nothing happens anyway. It's basically take pill. Lay down. Try to fall asleep asap. If can't fall asleep, chest starts to hurt/tighten, then I go out of breath. Usually gets very intense to the point I think I'll pass out, then the shivering / hypothermia part is rare, but does happen sometimes. Then I just kind-a whine to myself "fall asleep damn it!" til eventually I do pass out / wake up next morning o_o
*Shrug* It's worth it though. Been taking it what, 2 weeks now and I'm alive? So the pain/symptoms are worth being able to sleep through as much of my life as possible o_o Plus there's a chance it could kill me... Seeing as I obviously have depressional issues and occasional suicidal tendancies, it doesn't bother me even slightly. Not to say I hope the pills kill me, cause I HIGHLY doubt it. Unless I took more than the usual 3mgs o.o (Well, I have taken 6-9mgs a few times on days I felt like total crap / couldn't sleep) and the breathing actually did get cut off entirely? *Shrug* Either way... I'M RAMBLING!
</*shutthefuckup*>
Oh, speaking of which, I think I'm allergic to it though...
"Seek medical attention right away if any of these SEVERE side effects occur when using Melatonin:
Severe allergic reactions (rash; hives; difficulty breathing; tightness in the chest; swelling of the mouth, face, lips, or tongue); confusion; depression; fast heartbeat; hypothermia (fast breathing, shivering)."
The stuff in bold/italic being the ones that effect me. The hypothermia part is actually a pain in the ass when it kicks in cause I already feel like I can't breath, so gasping for air in quick/winded breath-mode is friggin' annoying. Usually if I can fall asleep before the shit kicks in, nothing happens anyway. It's basically take pill. Lay down. Try to fall asleep asap. If can't fall asleep, chest starts to hurt/tighten, then I go out of breath. Usually gets very intense to the point I think I'll pass out, then the shivering / hypothermia part is rare, but does happen sometimes. Then I just kind-a whine to myself "fall asleep damn it!" til eventually I do pass out / wake up next morning o_o
*Shrug* It's worth it though. Been taking it what, 2 weeks now and I'm alive? So the pain/symptoms are worth being able to sleep through as much of my life as possible o_o Plus there's a chance it could kill me... Seeing as I obviously have depressional issues and occasional suicidal tendancies, it doesn't bother me even slightly. Not to say I hope the pills kill me, cause I HIGHLY doubt it. Unless I took more than the usual 3mgs o.o (Well, I have taken 6-9mgs a few times on days I felt like total crap / couldn't sleep) and the breathing actually did get cut off entirely? *Shrug* Either way... I'M RAMBLING!
</*shutthefuckup*>
Good luck, Lige, on your interview. I do dearly hope you get the job.
As for the family situation... uh... no comment. It's not that I care; it's more like, "How the crap am I supposed to respond without sounding stupid?!"
As for the melatonin... I'll leave that to blade.
As for the family situation... uh... no comment. It's not that I care; it's more like, "How the crap am I supposed to respond without sounding stupid?!"
As for the melatonin... I'll leave that to blade.
Thanks ... Every interview I've had (7) that was actually REALLY looking to fill a position has led to a job. (5 jobs) The other 2 kind-a... Hard to 'splain o_o Basically, retarded <.<; -- So yeah, interviews usually turn into jobs for me, since I guess I'm friendly 'n such o_o
I think of myself as an orphan with no family, so no need to comment anyway. As soon as I get out of here, I'm never contacting any relatives ever again o_o. Physical, mental, and emotional abuse growing up as a 'kid' that never really got a childhood... They can burn in hell ;D
As for the pills, it's not as bad as it sounds. The pain is quite severe and makes me feel all weak 'n stuff, but it usually goes away if I force myself to breath/relax/try to fall asleep. No need to stop taking it for now. As, I seriously need the sleep
... Every interview I've had (7) that was actually REALLY looking to fill a position has led to a job. (5 jobs) The other 2 kind-a... Hard to 'splain o_o Basically, retarded <.<; -- So yeah, interviews usually turn into jobs for me, since I guess I'm friendly 'n such o_oI think of myself as an orphan with no family, so no need to comment anyway. As soon as I get out of here, I'm never contacting any relatives ever again o_o. Physical, mental, and emotional abuse growing up as a 'kid' that never really got a childhood... They can burn in hell ;D
As for the pills, it's not as bad as it sounds. The pain is quite severe and makes me feel all weak 'n stuff, but it usually goes away if I force myself to breath/relax/try to fall asleep. No need to stop taking it for now. As, I seriously need the sleep
Okay, first things first.
*puts on armor*
*tackleglomps Lige*
*backflips back onto feet*
blade's meds have worn off.
blade cares. I'd say more, but I'm very good at saying the wrong thing.
Umm, I've never had those symptons. They also don't seem good. Taking more than 6mg is probably a bad idea.
blade never really reacts predictably. Deal with it.
Well, I got 'em from the 2nd or 3rd day I took pills, and back then I was only taking the 3mg a day. If anything, taking more than 3mg knocks me out quicker and usually prevents me from having to deal with symptoms. Then again I wake up feeling more fatigued, so maybe I sleep through choking to death? *Shrugs* Dunno xD
Either way, from what I read, as long as not allergic, dosage doesn't really matter to at least 15mg, even though it's not recommended. I think I only have a problem cause I am allergic. But like I said, I'm still alive, so screw it
Isn't this deal or no deal?! YOU'RE THE BANKER! I ALWAYS SAY NO DEAL DAMN IT! >
Hmm... Almost caught up to latest episode of Fairy Tail. Dunno what to watch now (and no I don't need suggestions. Still have a list of like... 100 between people here and old friends from MSN back when I actually had contacts o_o) Just dunno which to pick >.<
(and no I don't need suggestions. Still have a list of like... 100 between people here and old friends from MSN back when I actually had contacts o_o) Just dunno which to pick >.<- Status